New year, New me... I promise

I never make New Years Resolutions, whats the point you always break them anyway. But, today I decided to make one that I will endevour to stick to....
I'm not a morning person, I'm just not I can't help it, it's just not in me to be a cheery, smiley (as I see it false weirdo or on drugs)person in the morning.But today I decided I had to attempt to be a little bit nicer in the mornings, but only at weekends. Together with the flu that engulfed me, christmas niceness and pregnancy hormones I managed to spend much of New Years Eve Eve in tears on my living room floor, wining like a baby that I was no good, falling apart, not remotely able in keeping one child, a house and a job nevermind two... That sort of thing. It was an arguement with himself that I had been having all morning in my head, festering away until I finally cracked and screamed many, many obsenities at him. And all becasue he shouted at me to get up in the morning and I didnt like his tone.
He to shouted many obsenities and flaws in my not so perfect self and made me think 'wise up and grow up, you are not an imbosile you do have the self discipline to be half nice in the monring.'
In other news, this was the quietest Christmas' I have ever encountered with the in law family. Long gone are the days of waking up to Louis Vuitton, Mulberry and Gucci labels under the tree, now it's Baby Gap, ELC and Toys'r'us. But I dont mind seeing Saf's face when she opened her presents (and mine and her dads and her nanny's and her aunties) was priceless.
I have had two glorious weeks of whats that? whats that noise? changea my bum pease.
Today she wanted to change my bum too..... I may be slightly mad, but I'm still able to use the lav, thanks love!